Excruciating Agony: My Fight With the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a gloomy Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp sensation erupted behind my one eye. This was followed by quick jolts, like electric shocks. As each class came and went, the pain subsided and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared frequently that fall, and again in the spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: aura in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-on agony in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP finally sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often start with severe pain around a single eye that lasts up to several hours.

About one in 1,000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more often affected. Attacks typically begin with sudden, severe pain focused on one eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. I have an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal bouts; others have chronic attacks, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts during attacks; the number fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things more intense. After having sherry at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic pain took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The first account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical medical records propose unusual remedies for what some observers would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a European physician who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key artery which supplies blood to the head. Prominent experts in treating the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a major journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four operations before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is essential: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain features such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced the condition for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a calm advisor talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.

National guidelines on management recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of some people.

But consultant specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Short bouts with occasional episodes are handled with abortive therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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Mark Gill
Mark Gill

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